Idk what to say

There’s so much I want to tell you. We are definitely due to catch up.

The reflex hasn’t gone away, it’s second nature to want to reach out to you. Every time I hear a song you might like, every time something funny or annoying happens, when there’s something to celebrate or when I’m at my lowest low.

Sometimes I just want to ask you a question, get your opinion on a hot topic or a personal situation and it takes just a moment for me to recognize that I’ll never know your answer.

It almost feels like a self-inflicted pain to think of you so often and mourn you so heavily. If I didn’t love you so much, if I could just forget, this wouldn’t be so hard.

Dear Em, I miss you.